SPiRAL: This is NOT the end...

helldrive_exe @ 2009-02-19T12:57:00

2009-02-19T04:57:27Z

Its been so long since I've last given this journal of mine an entry...Lots of things happened since the days then and the me now.

I take a look at myself and see so how lively I used to be....but also recollect how so unfocused and too carefree at those times. Well, here I am again. Still me, just grown up now, but old habits die hard.

helldrive_exe @ 2007-05-25T11:42:00

2007-05-25T03:42:31Z

I KNO RITE?! O_o

helldrive_exe @ 2007-02-27T23:33:00

2007-02-27T15:33:04Z

But I hate pretty boys. So fuck you Kanda Yuu. Fuck you and your pretty, trap face; fuck your Yakisoba; and fuck you for having wet-dreams of meeting a certain man before you die.

You're a terrible jackass.

helldrive_exe @ 2007-02-27T23:31:00

2007-02-27T15:31:04Z

TGI Friday's is always a great thing back in Japan. Y'know, hangingout with friends, checking out on some FRESH chicks with nice, fashionable street clothes and kicking back to play Guilty Gear.

Here in the Philippines I get blackouts, expressive homos, and incompetent teachers. Fuck. You're all horrible retards for not bringing me to the States so I can get shot and get mugged....get ripped off by some hooker by the street corner...Taxis passin' me by cuz of the color of my skin....

You know what? I just wanna go back to Japan - or have sweet btsks with Yuu-kun/Don and Lavi-kun/Henri. God I miss you guys. Did something happen to you Henri...? Your LJ's been gone for a while now.

Oh! Lastly! I've followed the footsteps of the trickster, Lavi/Rabi himself :> You're in ways an inspiration to this old boy, Lavi-kun. I am now a HAMMER-SWINGING RECESS.

Speaking of which: Kanda Yuu kinda does remind me of Sol Badguy with his sullen and unfriendly attitude whilst Rabi reminds me of Axl Low. Is this just coincidence why I kinda like both?

Another One Bites The Dust

2007-02-08T22:45:44Z

A recollection of how the course of my life has been going so far: I've never been happier as I had met 2 wonderful women who would teach me that I can indeed love again. Abby, who is an amazingly collected woman of 16 and Kena a woman pure of heart, aged 17. Both would teach me to somehow recourse from my past to be with another.

Honestly though, my past loves would always end with me being hurt, if not my partner. However, the past loves I have are memories I cannot forgive. Though they have mistakened me, I do not hate the women of my past life. I still love the sinners, but I have always detested the sin. I know in my heart though, I still love the women of my past, through the times they have flowered into people most beautiful. Though they cannot see the love I still have for them, I emit it nonetheless.

Now, I'm with Kena (WHO IS A HOT BABE BTW.) and I haven't had so much happiness for such a long time that I forget to look at the time and *gasp!* OMG it's already past midnight! I still have school dammit! >O

Yeah...I kinda skipped off a few Fridays, but I'll make it today. I swear it on my name. God, Kena don't know how much I'm so addicted to her right now.

With that said.

SPEAKING OF WHICH I have made new LJ Icons for my aesthetic tastes. I facking pwn bitches.

Happy New Years

2007-01-01T07:53:55Z

MUTHAFUCKAHS!

I Love

2006-12-24T10:43:22Z

Yuu-kun's vagina. Loldiefag.

Christmas Eve

2006-12-24T10:38:24Z

...Couldn't get my hands on a Nintendo Wii so I'm like "Fuck I don't have anything for Christmas", so I'm thinkin' of going to Roppongi and fuck me some nice 16 year old School Girls wanting to party. Or go to Machida to play in the Arcades, whichever works. But for tonight, Imma waste myself with some Baileys or MGD's. Dunno, I kinda have a wanting for beer more than liquor, kinda unusual for me. Goes down more smoother.

To my friends, all of you, and I do mean all of you. A Happy Merry Christmas.

Pls lemme touch your Wii?
lick your Wii?
sniff your Wii?
**** your Wii?

I also wanna apologies to McDohl for being an asshole/drunk/dullard and ruining his and probably others Friend-viewing benefits. So I apologies. My bad.

After 9 Corona's...

2006-12-22T13:22:21Z

Srsly, nothing changed. But I did fall in love with myself in front of the Mirror and started kissin' x frenchin' the damn thing. People thought I was going nuts.

But in all honesty I think I'm pwnage....!!

LOLOLOLOLOL

....

I'm so lonely *sigh* u_u

Yo My Buttfucks

2006-12-11T13:08:34Z

How are you?! D:

I bring presents from the South Pole! THE SOUTH POLE ITSELF! >_>! GO ON! DIG IN!

The Art of Bullets

2006-10-05T14:56:20Z

I've finally got to watch the movie Equilibrium. Though most of the movie revolved around drama about a Utopia...the fireworks just blew my mind. O_O

I wish to make Guns my new kind of martial arts. The art of using statistics and being able to utilize statistics to catch opponents upon their trajectories before vicinity of focused fire. I still need mastery of aim and over recoil though. ;_;

God...using Guns as a martial arts...killing as many opponents within every flowing movement and repositioning. For those who wanna know the art of Gunkata, you should watch this video:

The Art of Bullets

Watching this movie is like watching Bicentenial Man on steroids and wash it down with dual Berettas/Glocks/Bad Assitude. D:

Such a lonely Birthday

2006-09-29T14:32:34Z

...Well, as of the 29th of September is my date of birth. So yeah...Happy Birthday to me.

*sigh* so lonely.

helldrive_exe @ 2006-09-26T21:57:00

2006-09-26T13:57:17Z

...I'm going to kill you.

I AM GOD!

2006-09-21T07:04:28Z

Mike Hunt craves for some hardcore Spiral-action.

When All Goes Well

2006-09-21T07:01:53Z

Hrm...It's actually been quite a while since I took any activities such as singing, exercising, or even fap fapping to Bridget porn.

So I have a new recourse set in m'head: I'm gonna go back to music and be vocalist for any band that I come across. I've always wanted to sing for a crowd. It gives me more excitement than Bridget pr0n itself just to stand out from everyone else and allowing them to hear the uprising roar of my rebellion.

...I also wish I had Freddie Mercury's flamboyancy when singing "Killer Queen". That Man is made of GOD. >_>

...Die

2006-09-20T14:19:24Z

I will kill this faggot for a new PS2 mod chip. T_T

I RLY wanan play Xenogears Episode III...DAMN YOU DAISUKE!

O RLY?

2006-09-20T14:09:13Z

O RLY?
O RLY??
O RLY?!
O SLY!
YA RLY!
...NOT RLY!
NO WAI!

T_T

AHMAHGAWD STFU

2006-09-16T12:58:09Z

For now, I'mma exaggerate my feelings:

Today I'm pretty much like my usual self - lazy, bored, and emotionless. I then saw some fucktard pass by me, I LAWL'd and just called him names. Afterwards, to much leisure tinged by my lazy. boorish, and emotionless nature, I watched the guy burn his left nut.

From that exaggerated story, you can tell how I feel.

Btw, I welcome my Western Bitch - Lavi - to my LJ. Lavi-kun, do well to suck m'cock and please me.

13-Day Countdown

2006-09-16T08:00:06Z

...my birthday will be comming soon. Thinking about the many birthdays I've had, I feel a bit of melancholy upon the arrival of this one. 19 years of age...and I'm haunted by bad memories...memories of the longevity that is myself being a lonewolf. No, just a plain loner.

Morning Glory

2006-09-11T21:32:29Z

Just woke up. MORNING FUCING ERECTION!!! GIGGITY!! >_>

I woke up around 4 o'clock to work on a project for Engrish Class 3, here in the Filipino University I'm studying in. Oh, in case much of anyone wants to ask...I'm studying to become a Therapist, and I hope I get there. Yeah, I found myself a passion to helping others and this occupation coexists with me to help myself as well. About 2010, or so I recall upon statistics, the Therapy occupation will be much needed in the states and will have an INCREASE of income, thus will help me financially. And by raise I mean this: 70+ American Dollars per hour. 70,000$ - 90,000$ annualy. I want to give my family and wife/bitch a good foundation of financial safety before I incorporate them into my life. Who knows what the future will bring for me...but I have much recourse to making a certain girl to be the only one in my heart.

Who knows though, as much as she said it...Who knows what the future will bring? This future is now my resolve...

Personal Aspects

2006-09-11T14:06:28Z

I look back at the times of when I would always be fearless and would defy all odds for the sake of friends. But concealed from within, I’ve a hollow core. I suppose you can say I found strength in the name of fidelity and justice…I would incorporate the role of a hero, standing strong for the ones he loved and yet…no one has known the truth that I’ve lived a fucking Hell for the longest time and that I would be as to compelled to carrying everyone else’s burdens. My naivety is this: I wish for everyone’s happiness, even if it meant putting my own in hiatus or even negation.

I want you all to see who I really am: I’m grotesque, weak, incapable, and unworthy of anyone’s favor. But as I told myself that values change over time...I would childishly remnant to cling upon those who I’ve loved most. Even if I do know that ultimately…no one would have love for me, I would yet to do even the most radical of actions. This has been shown to my recourse for a good friend, whom I’ve risked my own renown for her sake. This isn’t and won’t be the last to my irrationality. I….have not much love for myself. I don’t see any positive aspects about my own character. Because I found no love for myself, I would find no happiness for myself. How can I love myself…that I blame myself for everyone always abandoning me?

I’m not here to whine, I’m here to justify what I’ve felt for the longest time. That I am not a burning disposition as people would think; rather that I mask myself into that disposition because I play the role of a falsified hero…a hero who carries so many scars. Fire doesn’t cleanse…it blackens my already distorted image.

DEDICATED TO STEVE IRWIN

2006-09-04T11:12:32Z

LOL! IM DRUNK ADN THIS POST IS FCUKLENG DEDICATED TO THE BEST COCK HUNTER INTEH FUCKING UNIVERSEE!! STEVE IRWIN!!! DERIVED FROM WIKIPEDIA:

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Early Years
Steve was born sometime in the 19th century, much like many medieval warriors of his time, although he never excelled at fighting. At an early age, Zorro hung him over a bunch of crocodiles with a sword, which began his interests in hunting and tracking. When he was five, his family took him into the outback to practice his hunting and tracking skills. Unfortunately, his tracking skills were not developed enough to stop him getting lost, and so when he finally found his way back to where his family were, his were gone. While he waited for them to come back, a small family of various unspecific good-natured cute and fluffy animals approached him. Sensing the young Irwin's distress, they took him in as one of their own.
For twenty years, Irwin lived with the animals, learning their ways, customs, and songs, though not in a way that would infringe any copyrights. One day however, the cute and fluffy animals were sleeping in their little beds, when a pack of bad animals came across their home. Being evil, they proceeded to kill and eat every single one of them. Fortunately for Steve, he was out gathering berries at the time, but upon his return and disovery of his murdered animal family, he swore to get revenge on all bad animals everywhere. After honing and perfecting his tracking and hunting skills, he eventually retured to be with his own kind.

Enemies
His enmity against Spider-Man is deep rooted. A long time ago in a galaxy far away, on the planet of Freddy Mercury, spiders were larger, faster, and stronger than the aforementioned Emperor Penguins. The civil war fought between them was massive. Spider-Man was a leading general of the spiders' forces, while Steve Irwin was the general of the emperor penguins' forces.
When he decided to hunt down The King of Idiots, Steve Irwin gained a powerful foe: Bob Dole. This failed politician was the man who hinted Steve Ballmer to Irwin's insanity, which resulted in Irwin's death.
The King of Idiots is the only creature known to have survived Steve Irwin's hunting skills, and Steve despised him until his death in 2006.

The Final Showdown
In 2006, Steve finally tracked down the leader of the unspecific animals who had brutally slain his cute and fluffy animal family. The leader turned out to be a giant stingray who went by the name Stingray, who had been in hiding with his girlfriend, Aqua-Marina, ever since he'd heard of Irwin's promise of vengeance. A fight scene of fantastic proportions ensued, the pair eventually ending up on a boat in the middle of the Pacific ocean. Irwin managed to finally kill Stingray with a harpoon to the heart, but as Stingray was falling back into the ocean in slow motion, he pulled out a concealed barb, and managed to pierce the unsuspecting Irwin's heart with it before he could react, fatally wounding him.
As Steve's life flashed before his eyes (with appropriately emotional music in the background), he saw all of his fluffy animal family frolicking in the outback with him. He then realised he had finally avenged their deaths, and so was able to peacefully go to frolic with them in the great outback in the sky. And somewhere up in Heaven, there's an angel with a brave man's thumb up its arse.

Missing You Guys...

2006-08-24T03:49:40Z

Heh. Maybe I'm the one to blame when I left everyone to drift away from me. I must apologies for severing our ties, but I want to be the one who can bring us back together, or atleast so I can hear from you guys again.

Well, I've always been in AIM as Riot Saga. Anyways, I'm hoping to meet you all again soon. I really am in need of some companionship, as these years of not having to talk with any of you has degraded me powerless and hardly clinging for precious life.

IN SHORT: STFU AND GET ON AIM/MSN/Y! SO I CAN TALK WITH YOU T_T.

I have to apologies though, that I have never been the type to be talking...I lack the tact to keep things interesting.

Nosferatu Fefnir - The Art

2006-06-02T13:16:12Z

Hey guys...This is my first, complete artwork...it took about 35 minutes to make. XD Anyways, this is but my first, so I believe it won't get any good comments, but I'll let you guys give me your perception. It'd be much appreciated if you may. ^^

One does not simply shot web

2006-05-31T23:28:12Z

Whoa, it's been how many months now since I last logged in my livejournal? oh gosh...look at that. I'm back. :O